music to His ears

Dear Lord,

I'm sorry I didn't play too well just now. It's been so long since I played for the main team.

All these while, it was good training ground to play for the children. But children, they don't really care whether you're playing right or wrong. I can play basic and the worship session can still go on. But playing up there with the best players, it's something different altogether.

But I just want to thank you for giving me this talent, and skill. Thank you for putting that desire in my mum to send me off for classes when I wondered what good piano lessons would do for me. It was only later that I found out she wanted me to play for You.

Thank you for going through all those horrendous exams with me, even when I didn't know if I would end up doing something with my piano education. It was You who blessed me with good results. You knew the amount of practice I do, so it was You!

Thank you for good piano teachers, none whacked my fingers like some do. Thank you also for kind neighbours who had to stand my hours of off-key songs and melodies in wrong tempo. May you bless their ears.

Now that I can play for church, I find such joy in using my skills. It's been wonderful seeing people come to worship, and that our music ushers in Your presence. Not that you needed it in the first place. You have always been there, and it's You who move our fingers and fill our voices with beautiful music.

For this, I thank You again for this indescribable joy. Something that no one can take away from me. Something that will inspire me to become a better player. Something that will draw me closer to You.

I promise to do better next time, if You so allow Your humble servant.


Ps : I know it was just practice, and we're allowed to make mistakes. But I still feel bad, though slightly better now. Thanks to J for the encouragement. :)